A Race Against Time

2012-02-16T01:10:00.002+08:00

Been thinking hard about my social life these few days, about if I should carry on with my sometimes day or should I give it another try? I realise I'm still growing, my 21st year of life is totally different from what I used to think of. I find myself thinking more about life, more forgivable and seeing people around me in a different perspective. Having a gathering the last few days provoke every sweet moments in high school. I seripusly haven't been so in love with the presence of soapy wonderful high school mates whom I spent 5 or more years with. I still the joy I found in them surpasses all the good moment I have since leaving my high school.my friends and I were wishing we could have it all over again.

Valentines day was 2 days after that. I'm still feeling unprepared to be involved in any relationships yet. I'm anxious about how things might turn out later. Apart from that I think I need more time to get over with the past memories I'm still holding on to, especially after meeting him.

I'm thankful Im able to finish this piece of writing before my battery dies off. It's 2 in the morn and its pouring heavily outside. My friends seem to have fallen asleep leaving a nostalgic lad on her bed concentrating on her writing. It's somehow different this time with her sis besides her and surprisingly, without tears :)

Mindfucked

2012-02-16T01:08:00.002+08:00

What's the point of giving me the same old feelings and again you left without a single word ?

Mindfucked

Valentines Day

2012-02-14T02:55:00.004+08:00

Happy valentine's day peeps! It's the valentines season again and its the first time without a valentine after the last 2 years. Not feeling sad but it makes me wonder what would happen if I have someone I love at the moment.no emoness intended lol
Got a text saying 'be my valentine?', I wasnt excited cos I really hate this he-likes-me-but-I-like-another-him-relationship. I wonder when would this end. I really hope my heart would be soften one day and would be willing to be involved in a serious relationship again. I wonder how he's doing right now :| gotta ask my BFF what to do next after her exams tomorrow. I foresee a bonding session with all my bffs,aka the Sakai group.Rawr!!!!

Another Night Like This

2012-02-14T02:40:00.002+08:00

When insomnia strikes, I do blog walking cruising around ppl's page and stalk on ppl's twitter. It leaves me a very different kind of feelong after that.
I disgress.It's been 3 days since I last met him and I couldn't believe the feelings in me towards him is still strong,far beyond my own imaginations. Been talking to sis about him and the feelings grow which makes me think that I should think anything which relates to him. I was surprised he actually came and we talked so much that day. From what I can see, he's grown and has become a lil more mature than he used to be. I got to know that he's actually into someone.though it bitters me but i really hope he's serious.i can't believe I'm this open about my feelings in this post ever since I blogged about my true feelings for someone on relationship like 2 years ago.we've all grown up. :(

Sushi

2012-01-19T11:17:00.002+08:00

I've just eaten a terriyaki sushi and that perks me up!

I have always been craving for sushi, like all the time, or every other day. I cant seem to live without japanese food especially sushi. It seems that they have a perfect combination of taste- plain sushi rice, salty seaweed and sweet filling (chicken, pork of squid)
I cant wait to go home to savour my favourite delicacies. slurp.

4 Temperament Quiz

2012-01-17T00:35:00.004+08:00

Tears welled up as I was listening to jj's song. I still have this must-do every night to listen to songs before I sleep. It's stirs my feelings, a lot. It all started when I it my mp4 when I was 14 and I carried this daily routine till today.

Just talked about the 4 personality test just now with some of them and their first guess of my result was melancholy. I was told by 2 ppl that my first impression in them was that I was too cool. Oh really? I thought I talked so much more nowadays. But yeah, glad that you know me more now. And oh yeah talking about the test, here's my results

4 temperament test- phlegmatic melancholy
Myers Briggs- ENFJ, The idealist, the teacher

Duh. Just as what ive expected. Sometimes I really feel ppl around me don't understand me as much. But sometimes I couldn't really be bothered as long as I know that it doesn't cause me any problems. And some ppl just don't worth my effort of getting to know them better. Sigh I still miss my buddies, where are you guys?
I know that the period we have known each other has built a strong foundation in our friendships and nothing would shaken it, and not until we have separated that I treasure the value of it :)

It's good to know early

What's Love

2012-01-17T00:30:00.001+08:00

We can never learn love, cos love is never a lesson.
Love is not a game, not a cycle, not an object, but a feeling.
Love is always there just like other emotions. But its hidden.
Only through certain people at certain times in your life will you subconsciously express it.

We never learn love. But we learn relationships

Something Borrowed

2012-01-16T17:03:00.002+08:00

'Everything makes sense when youre here with me
The idea of life without you is not only unbearable but unimaginable.'

Living Miracle

2012-01-16T16:58:00.002+08:00

Just when i was hoping and awaiting for a miracle to happen, I was told by 3 little birds that
'The fact that you're living now is already a miracle. Ask less and be contented of where you are what you already own now.'

The 100th Post About Life

2012-01-15T18:59:00.003+08:00

When life's driving you insane, try talking to a cartoon character

Thoughts of mine

2012-01-15T18:30:00.003+08:00

Hmm am feeling good getting to spend time by myself. Theres nothing better than sleeping in till the noon and taking my own sweet time in daily chores or to spend the entire day catching up with the latest movies and musics. The fact however is that I don't get much time left for myself when the semester starts. I cant believe that I'm already in the 9th week of my summer holiday. There are only 5 more weeks to go for the commencement of my year 2 journey. I really wonder how is it gonna be like, crazy workloads, emotional challenge, time constraints, burning passion in a few fields, or something mire beyond my imaginations. A few of the juniors have already contacted me about accommodation and preparations and seeing their current situation and feeling remind me about myself before I left for Brisbane. I'm no longer a kid but a senior to them, and it's definitely the time to grow in maturity in thoughts and many different areas.

Preparations home

2012-01-15T15:07:00.003+08:00

8 more days to cny, 12 more days to home

Appointments are coming on my way as more and more friends learn about my return
Activities plans are all written down
Birthday party is becoming more organized

I'm still preparing myself home, awaiting for the more exciing plans ahead :)

Look before you leap

2012-01-12T15:04:00.003+08:00

How many inches do you leap out every step you take?

As we have km/h as the speed for vehicles, I believe we can accurately calculate the average distance we walk per unit time

As the average walking speed is determined by the square root of gravity times height, I believe im perhaps walking faster than my normal average speed.

Over the year living outside KL, I've been told that I walk really fast. I was surprised when I was told about that as no one has ever commented on the speed I walk when I was residing in KL. perhaps because that's our normal speed. As you can see, in KL the busy city, it's always busy and packed not only with people but vehicles. You can easily stuck at the sane location for an hour just waiting to pay for your items or the toll, to search for a parking. You can't afford the miss the next bus or train or the condition will be different and you are most probably gonna be late.you'll be surprise to see how different it is at the same location within a mere 5 minutes. If youre late by 5 mins at that place, thats it, you should probably put your headphones on to prepare yourself for the congestions and the ear piercing honking. Thts why we need to be living in a super fast pace, getting on the right timing to avoid unnecessary crowd.

Unlike KL, in queensland this boring place,most people tend to take their own sweet time to stroll. I tried following their pace but I failed to because it's just too slow for me. I realise however, sometimes, even if I walk fast, they're still ahead of me. That's probably because their slower pace comes with a bigger leap, so the overall distance taken is still greater than mine.

As I was walking at my usual speed on the pavement towards uq, I've got a few glimpse from the ppl in front of me wanting to make a way for me, hearing that there's a fast pace person walking behind them as the sound from my heels was approaching them. I realise it's the time for me to slow down

Hot girls

2012-01-11T18:34:00.003+08:00

It's so hot today
That you could barely breathe
The heat is consuming you
And that causes the sweat to escape from every inch of your skin

The suns so bright out there
And a glimpse of it would hurt your eyes
You're stuck inside the microwave oven
And you could do nothing except to release a deep sigh

And finally when I have no choice but to escape
I decided to tie my hair up

Oh my, the heat has apparently blown my mind up isnt it

MASK clique

2012-01-11T13:30:00.003+08:00

People whom i spend most of my time with- the MASK group

Here's a little bit about ourselves:

Group Name: MASK group
Date of establishment: March 1^st 2011
Members: Marin, Angela, Selina, Kelly (MASK)

Time spent together:
Almost everyday in the lecture theaters
Occassional outings
Riverfire
UQ Wasabi movie night
Kelly's birthday to Little Tokyo and laser show
Selina and Angela's birthday to Shabu House and karaoke
Christmas at Marin's house

Common Interests:
Korean, Taiwanese and Hong Kong dramas
Piano
Cute guys

We're now learning japanese from Miss Marin

Unique character:
M- Drama and Dancing Queen
A- The quiet and talented ones
S- the funky and the hot woman
K- leaving for you to decide

Each and every one of us makes the PERFECT MASK CLIQUE

Talking to Yourself

2012-01-11T13:01:00.003+08:00

I've never found anything wrong about blogging until recently, blogging seems to me like im talking to myself.

I've been blogging relatively more nowadays. Sometimes i wrote but I failed to post them up. I have always had ideas flow surging into my mind, especially in moments when i was alone.
You see, the reason is I was left alone at home is simple, if i wasn't not out, I didn't have to attend classes nor having assignments to catch up with, and since my **MASK group buddies aren't here, it's entirely up to me to catch a breath of fresh air outside or not. So i tend to spend most of my time staring into the laptop screen, replying ppl's pokes and messages, arranging the dates on skype or watch a couple of videos. I will normally get excited and forget about all the sorrows when I'm facing my friends but the negative feelings will come haunting when Im alone all over again.
I remember those days when i felt torturous to be left alone for only even 5 hours, as I will feel extremely uncomfortable of having no one besides and then i will put myself into sleep until everyone's back again. And I will literally shout at the computer screen saying 'What?!' whenever I was told by my friends on msn that they're alone at home after their parents are off to work. It took me by surprise how can they actually live alone for long hours with the fact that I've ALWAYS had a company back home in whatever things I do. I was driven to wherever i wanna go, was cooked for, and will always have someone to share bed time stories with, to play the play station, to sing to dance and the list goes on. I dont have to explain any further about the reasons I find it TORTUROUS to be left alone.

And now i was dumped in a foreign land all by myself, to fend for myself or I will just die without anyone knowing. I really salute myself for being able to survive one year over here (evil laugh)

**MASK group buddies are the closest group of friends I have where we see each other everyday in the class, studying together in the exam period, having at least one meet-up every week, hanging out for no particular reasons, celebrating each others birthdays, be each others' secret santas, we cook, bake and sleep together, and hopefully we'll be dancing together in the coming semester.
This group will be one of the major reasons i cry on my graduation day, of not having the chance to see each other that often anymore.

While I was told that there's no REAL friendship in pharmacy since its one of the competitive courses, but I believe we'll be able to maintain this genuine friendship throughout. Yes, there are times when we get all frustrated, not about our friendship but the stress of studies, we still try to calm each other down. i didnt know how I got so close with them, but i believe the ultimate reason is that we just clique to one another!

I've been ranting again, I shouldve write another post about MASK group, shouldnt I?

Bruno Mars has the tendency to stare and talk to the moon, and im now here talking to myself.

Home

2012-01-11T12:47:00.002+08:00

要回家，回哪个家

Less than 20 days to home. I have sort of had every activities planned out before I step on that land.
While a part of me is being excited, there's another part of uneasiness. I thought everything was alright until i was thrown question about my party, about if I will be back to Pg or not. Since I have all my family members living separately in different parts in Malaysia, Sg, China and the UK, it's becoming my obligation to see them at all these places after being away for so long, or i will feel bad if I don't. The thing is I'll only be there for a month and apart of having so many things to catch up with, I need to allocate some time to travel to greet them.

Another mission is to find him, not my boyfriend, nor my ex or anything to do with boy girl relationship. I need to bring this topic up again.

I really hope I'll have enough time to do all I wanna do before flying back to Brisbane again. (Feeling like a business woman)

Wtf

2012-01-10T20:48:00.001+08:00

Sometimes nothing at all can seem to cheer me up
Not even the greatest news on earth
Argh.

Foreseeing

2012-01-10T16:46:00.003+08:00

Two more weeks to home! I m kinda excited to be back to see the loved ones, to be back to my comfort zone going back to the days when I literally didnt have to do anything at all, to shop, to eat, to hang out In the late midnight, and if course my birthday party!
Am currently preparing a guest list and more or less about theft and event. Keeping my finger crossed that it will be a WONDERFUL ones.

11022012 & 21122012
I can't wait fr your arrival, I'm currently enjoying the process of preparation

Oh and thank god, it's been a week since my flight oxley was settled, otherwise I wouldn't be posting about my preparation :)

Half roasted

2012-01-10T16:43:00.004+08:00

Burning hot.
Not to the extend of burnt yet, but I felt I was roasted
I was sweating like a pig for the whole day. Yucks

I knew it

2012-01-10T01:46:00.002+08:00

I know in my heart that even I deny about my feelings for you , I understand very clearly that I haven't actually completed forgotten about you.
I knew it when I hesitated about putting you into my guest list
I knew it when I would imagine the awkward moment when both of us were under one roof
I knew it when I would read your blog again and again looking for a trace of hope
I knew it when I would secretly follow your updates in every of your social network
I knew it when I would unintentionally smiled at your videos appearing on my screen
And I knew it when I struggled to stop hoping for things to fall back into the right place again

Boy I knew it, and I wish you knew it too

21st century

2012-01-10T01:29:00.003+08:00

It's been 10 days since the beginning of this year. And i've yet to set my resolutions, though it's not something I'd do every year,nor will I act according to what I've set. This year however is a bit different , I'm gonna have a few resolutions this year seeing it's my 21st year on earth, a life changing 21st, as most of them say. I wonder of Its gonna be any life changing moments, or any life decisions that I'd have to make. Let's see:

1. Have a very wonderful 21st birthday party!!
2. Learn some foreign languages, French or Japanese
3. Pursue my true passion in choreography
5. Get in to the dance society and Be more active in the clubs and societies in the uni
6. Visit at least one foreign land except malaise and Australia
7. More catching up with buddies (friends and families)
8. Polish up my cooking skills- to grow up out of my comfort zone
9. Pass all the courses and secure one of my dream jobs
10. Blog more and make more videos on YouTube

Interesting, isn't it?
You're perhaps too absorbed in my resolutions and you missed out my 4th point.

Ni men. All of you

2012-01-10T00:31:00.001+08:00

有种等不及的感觉
我怎么会那么想你们

谢谢你们爱我的每个人

Christina (Perri)

2012-01-09T16:40:00.003+08:00

Christina,
A beautiful girl with a beautiful voice
You've just melted my heart
With your angelic voice
And your well expressed tone and emotions
Truly stirs the feelings within me

"A Thousand Years"

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer